Did that get your attention?  Probably not. I don’t know if I like this wordpress thing, though I can see that it has some advantages over manually blogging. I’m even thinking of buying a new domain and setting up my own wordpress blog there instead. But I still prefer LiveJournal.  The community aspect of LJ wins out over the anonymity of WP. At LJ it was just a short moment before I had built up a readership. My friendslist became full of people who were genuinely friends and who did a lot to pull me through a really bad time. But here, I feel like I’m standing on top of a mountain in company with thousands of others.  And we are all shouting into the wind, but not listening to anyone. How did you do it? If anyone is reading this of course.  I know, I know, I should blog or journal or whatever for myself, but being honest here, an audience is necessary if this is not to turn into a form of word-wanking.  (Am I allowed to say that?  Should a 40-something wife and mother say that? Probably not. But no one’s looking so I think I got away with it!)

DH has spent today having three interviews.  Poor lamb, he sounded completely knackered on the phone this evening. One of them at least seemed to have gone well.  I have faith in him; I know he’s going to find a new job sooner or later. But i also know that he’ll fret until he does. The joys of being married to a contractor! It’s funny to see how far he’s come, from the book packer in an SF bookshop when I first met him; to bottle sorter at Coca Cola; KFC chicken slinger; graphic artist in a backstreet copy shop; graphic artist in newspapers to web designer for a major TV company.  Then to work for the army, the MoD, and now Vodaphone as an advert scheduler. Back then we could barely make the rent, now he’s earning so much money that fairly astounds both of us.  And it’s enough to be buying our first home (and our last!). I am so proud of him. Not only because he has progressed so far but because he’s done it all without formal training. No university education, no training courses. He’s done it all himself. And won a BAFTA Cymru into the bargain. I have the best husband in all the world by the way!

While I’m here and talking about husband and all, I thought I’d just cut-and-paste something I wrote for the monogamy fanlisting I built today. It is a sad thing, but when I tried to find poems and quotes about monogamy, most of them were laughing at the idea, or the writer was completely against it.  There were far more words on the subject of infidelity.  Many writers said that it was impossible to be happy and monogamous, that it is an unnatural condition and that humankind was not made to stay with only one mate forever.  And when the divorce rate is 1:3 or near enough, it would seem that monogamy is an outdated and unfashionable concept.  But I do not agree at all.

I have been with my husband since we met in 1983.  A completely faithful and monogamous relationship, that “they” say is impossible and artificially imposed.  It is not easy to stay in a monogamous relationship.  If one has any sense of committment at all, it takes courage and determination to stay together despite the problems and the ups and downs of living with somone else.  But the deep trust, understanding, friendship and love that comes from a monogamous relationship is well worth everything. After 25 years, my husband and I are still very much in love and very happy together.

Okay, before I go, just one thing. What wordpress really needs is some kind of search thing. I would love to search for blogs by women, particularly women in Wales, but at the moment I can’t find anything. Very annoying.